UH OH....

i think that the first sign of stress just hit me. i *was* sleeping, until i had the horrible bad dream...and now i'm up and awake...blogging about it.

it started in first year, that when i was really stressed out i would have this dream where i would lose all my teeth. i know it's really odd, but it happened a couple times - during exam time. then i think it only happened once during second year, and just now, i had another one of these reoccuring dreams about losing teeth. it's a different dream, but in it, i always seem to lose teeth :(

so this one was about me coming home late from studying, and i had an odd feeling that something bad was going to happen, so i rush to get to the elevator, and as i round the corner, i see these nurses and ambluance, taking someone away on a stretcher, and it seems to be stabbing injuries. so i hurry, because i felt someone following me....and i can't push the buttons in the elevator. all of a sudden, it closes, and when the doors open, i'm in this coffee shop, and everything seems normal - people reading newspaper, and drinking coffee. so i rush out of the door, and i'm in a totally different city - i have no clue where i am. so i'm trying to find my house, and then all of a sudden, i feel all these little crumbly pieces in my mouth, and it's my teeth! some fell out, and some were just broken into pieces - but none of the pieces were sharp like they were shattered or anything....all with smooth edges.
and then i wake up, get out of bed, and realize that it's all just a bad dream.

and i'm sitting here thinking why i have these dreams - what is God trying to get through to me? am i not solely depending on him to provide for me everything i need? am i not allowing him to help me because i'm so caught up and worried about studying, and finals, and optometry and life? what's going on? why am i holding back??

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ~2 Corinthians 2:19
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ~Matthew 6:34