game over....

that's how it feels right now. all the time, i feel like there is so much i hafta get done. life keeps on chugging by one deadline at a time. i'm always working towards the due date. reading week is officially over, and i'm not ready to head back to waterloo. why? i like it here. i like being at home. i miss hanging out with my mom, i miss being able to not do homework for one day and not feel guility about it - which has not happened yet, but saturday might be the day...i dont know why i feel bad when i go a day without studying. i dont know why i feel guilty when i skip class - even though i'm so tired that i dont get anything out of it.....at least i was there, right?? unfortunately just physically and not mentally.
and so i'm struggling with my optometry essay. i have an idea of what i would like to do...now i just hafta find some current reliable info..........................