something bigger
a poem by c. douglas

sometimes i wish there was something bigger
something heroic for me to do
my grandfather dodged Nazi bullets to save freedon
my dad fought to start and run a successful business for his family
i want to do something that matters
all they ask of me is get good grades
be nice to your sister
dont do drugs
dont have sex
just be yourself
its not enough
i want something harder, deeper
i want something to fight and die for
i want to live at the end of myself for what really matters
part of me stood up when i read Jesus' words
"the person who wants to follow me has to deny himself."
"the person who wants to follow me has to drag his own execution device around-
everyday"
"the person who wants to follow me has to follow me."
that sounds hard
that sounds painful
that sounds impossible
where do i sign?