jitters!!

tonite was testimony nite at ccf, and all i can recall is all the nervousness i felt before it was my turn to go up and share my story. thanx so much to euming who saw the nervous me and talked with me, calmed me down, and prayed with me. it was so scary cuz there were so many ppl in the room..so many ppl that i did not kno, who would be given the details of my life. i guess i was worried about having the right words to say, and making sure that my story would have an impact on someones life. what i began to realize was that this was *my* story, and that everything i would say was to give glory to God and that everything i wanted to share about is what He has done for me. i wanted to credit everything to Him, and because of this, He would give me the right words, He would touch the hearts of the ppl listening, and that i was merely a tool being used by the craftsman. "Do not worry about what to say or how to say it. at that time you will be given what to say, for it will not be y ou speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. ~ Matthew 10:19-20" tonite was my first time sharing in front of the fellowship, and i could actually feel a sense of calmness as i was up there. at first i didnt know how much detail to go into, how exposed did i want to be? how much did i want to let these ppl in on my past? and even though i was at a loss for words a couple times, and i kinda just ended with 'ok, that's all i wanna share about' i have faith that God will use me and my story in some way. i have learnt so much from going through certain experiences, and even though there is a loss, there is always a gain as well. everything happens for a reason, and i think that my eyes have been finally opened to see why i went through what i did during my 1A term here.